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Okay, So Maybe [Dec. 19th, 2016|11:45 pm]
Robzilla
Okay, so maybe I indulged tonight
Okay, so maybe I'll stay inside tonight
Blinds are down, I think I'll drown
In my weight of drink tonight.
I judge me from within
drowning in my sin
stumbling on truth
pulling up the root
dying where I lay
last thoughts are in a haze
tomorrow I'll try again

Okay, so maybe I repent tonight
Okay, so maybe I forgive tonight
me and my, tomorrow I
let my weary head tonight

So I snuck a drink tonight. My fourth of many
The room didn't notice.
But the dog judged me.
He stared at me. He perked his ears, he barked at me.
He knew, he knew, but still I drank. He knew.
He judged me, he judged me.
Won't talk to me, but he'll judge me.

Would you hate the idea?
If I talked to me?
And told me all the things
I ever wanted to be?
Too late to turn around, head on I'll run aground
and land wherever I may

Charmed, I'm sure.
I'm not the man, It's just a suit.
Decorated like them
It's deliberate.
The hand of good will.
Bend over backwards.
Time to engage at our favorite place.
There's no returning home
exactly what we asked them to do.
It's perfect. time is changing
Morality is changing
I am changing.

My shadow dances better than me
I don't listen to what I see
Cause I can fool me, cause I can fool me.
damn the image embrace
Falling for the damaged disgrace
of who I really am.
Oh, I get deep
For being so shallow I really get deep
And deeper, and deeper and deeper I climb
Higher and higher I sink in decline
brighter and brighter I die on the vine
Faster and faster I crawl down that line.
I get deep, yeah I get deep, for being so shallow I really get deep.
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just stop [Dec. 13th, 2016|09:11 pm]
Robzilla
Don't freak out, or call the authorities
I'm just talking, just saying, just sharing the things
but throwing them on paper,
instead of dreading those things

A way to cope, a way to be
A way to say what's more that real
The way I wrote, the way I see
to keep me safe from what is real
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Here? [Dec. 13th, 2016|09:08 pm]
Robzilla
I'm not here for you, I'm not here for me, I'm not here for us, just set me free.
I can't depend on you, I can't depend on me, I can't depend on us, to set us free.
It's not up to you, it's up to me, it's not bout us, I must be free
Don't talk to me, just et me be, get out of my way, it's time to be
I'm more awake than I could dream, the time is now, I'm finally free.
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set, go [Dec. 13th, 2016|09:04 pm]
Robzilla
I'm almost ready, I'm almost ready I'm almost ready
for stage two
I'm almost ready, I'm almost ready I'm almost ready
it's overdue
Get the nerve, pick up the blue, get the nerve it's overdue
Get the nerve, pick up the blue, get the nerve it's overdue
just get the nerve, do it for you.

Finally, something for me.
Finally, something for me.
Finally, something for me.

It's what I've always wanted to do.
Don't you think it's not for me
I've fought it hard, but not to be
I just gave in so totally me
to finally do, something for me.
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NO ANSWER [Dec. 13th, 2016|08:59 pm]
Robzilla
I'm still here, tell me why tell me why.
I'm still here, don't know why don't know why
You're still here, tell me why tell me why
fucking go away, leave tonight leave tonight

you confuse me, you give me doubts
you don't love me, you scream and shout,
you don't want me, I'm just around
and you're too scared to just walk out.
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FUCKER [Dec. 13th, 2016|08:56 pm]
Robzilla
FUCK ME, FUCK YOU, FUCK THIS SHIT I AIN'T TRYING
FUCK ME FUCK YOU FUCK THIS SHIT I'M DONE CRYING
HEMINGWAY
HEMINGWAY
HEMINGWAY
HEMINGWAY
HEMINGWAY
HELP ME
HELP ME
HELP ME
HEMINGWAY
THE TOE OF DETERMINATION - IF YOU WANT IT TO HAPPEN
A LIFE OF REGURGITATION - AT THE LAST SECOND
AND STILL THE RIGHT DECISION
THE WORLD WILL GO ONE - WITHOUT ME
WHY? BECAUSE I DON'T MATTER.
I DIDN'T MATTER
I NEVER MATTERED
AND I STILL WON'T MATTER
AFTER I'M GONE. AFTER I'M GONE. AFTER I'M GONE.
NOTHING ELSE WILL MATTER. ASK HEMINGWAY.
YEAH, I'VE BEEN TO HIS HOUSE.
ASK HEMINGWAY.
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nope [Dec. 13th, 2016|08:52 pm]
Robzilla
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, and I don't give a fuck.
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, and I don't give a fuck.
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, and I don't give a fuck.
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
because you don't give a fuck either.
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, and I don't give a fuck.
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, and I don't give a fuck.
Yeah I know, yeah I know, yeah I know, and I don't give a fuck.
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
I'm not alone
because you don't give a fuck either.
Why should You? If I don't...
Why should You? If I don't...
Why should You? If I don't...
No one should, no one should, no one should
Give a fuck give a fuck give a fuck give a fucking fuck
'cause such is life.
Life don't care about you, or feelings, your kids, your friends, or job, your wife, your4 worries, your sleep, your dog, your vacation, your hopes, your dreams, your future, your possibilities, your soul.
It don't give a fuck. It don't give a fuck. It don't give a fuck.
And neither should you.
It don't give a fuck. It don't give a fuck. It don't give a fuck.
And neither should you.
It don't give a fuck. It don't give a fuck. It don't give a fuck.
And neither should you.
andsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon'tandsoidon't
FFFUUUUCKCKKKKKK1K1KKK
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Relief [Dec. 13th, 2016|08:45 pm]
Robzilla
I'm ready for that sweet relief.
I'm ready for that sweet relief.
That time when I'm not available for you to care about.
That time for your sweet relief.

No one cares about me. No one cares about me. No one cares about me.
I already know.
No one cares about me. No one cares about me. No one cares about me.
I already know.
No one cares about me. No one cares about me. No one cares about me.
I already know.

I'm ready for the silent speech.
I'm ready for the silent speech.
That time that I can't hear you bitch about
That time that you can let it go.

No one cares about me. No one cares about me. No one cares about me.
I already know.
No one cares about me. No one cares about me. No one cares about me.
I already know.
No one cares about me. No one cares about me. No one cares about me.
I already know.

Let it go. Let it go.
'cause you're alone 'cause you're alone.
You think I hear? You think I hear?
It's just placebo, just placebo
You're still alone. You're still alone.
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The agility of anger [Dec. 13th, 2016|08:36 pm]
Robzilla
Anger is generic. Rage is specific. It doesn't mean it defines who I am tonight.
It certainly doesn't mean I'll wake up tomorrow and feel alright.
Cause that's life
Yeah that's life
And I'm always wondering when fate will see it my way.

Drunken on the liquor. High on the reefer. Misplaced my own self, no hope to find me tonight.
It absolutely means I'll still be raging tomorrow, full of piss and fight.
It's not sad. Fury is better than sad.
I'm not mad, I'm way beyond that.
It's life.
Yeah.
That's life.
I'm always ready for fate to lead me the way.

ahhh...fuck writing some lame ass song that no one gives a shit enough to hear
ahhh...fuck saying some lame ass baggage that no one gives a shit to bear

So here I am. Barely.
So here I am. warily...
hoping for an end.
Fate do it for me. Fate, bring me home.
Fate do it for me. Fate, bring me home.
Fate do it for me. Fate, bring me home.

Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you miss me when I take me away?
Will you miss me when I'm gone?
Will you miss me when I take me away?
Because I wonder.
I wonder.
I wonder. Still wondering.
I've made up my mind.
no.
no.
no.
no.
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